Writing is powerful. I had someone ask me this week why I chose to start a blog instead of a youtube channel, an instagram or literally anything else. And it's because words are strong. The beauty of reading is in interpretation. When you read my stories, like you are right now, there’s no context. No tone. No expression on my face hinting at what I want you to feel. There’s just words. Your mind is free to picture whatever, or whoever, it desires and your heart attaches to different parts without you fulling knowing why. And that’s why I choose to write instead of speaking. You take in each word at your own pace and you almost mold it to how you’re feeling.
For the past year and a half I've had a practice that I've done every single night. I write down the highlight of my day, what I’m praying for, and something I’m looking forward to tomorrow. I can’t tell you how many answered prayers I was missing. How many times God came through and showed up and I was too busy with new worries to notice. When I started looking back at all the things I’d been praying for…I found that He’d answered so many of them. I can't begin to recommend keeping a prayer journal enough. I promise you'll look back amazed at how good He's been to you and how He's shown up in your life.
On top of that, as soon as I would lay in bed and try to think about the highlight of my day, my perspective began to do a 180. I was searching my day for the good parts. Even when I had the worst day I, even more so, went searching for the little victories and blessings sprinkled throughout that seemingly awful day. And I'm sure writing down something you're looking forward to tomorrow sounds a little strange, but it's honestly like setting yourself up to have a great day. Even on days that I know will meet me with hard truths or ones that drag on forever, there's something about looking forward to that one thing. Sometimes its getting a hug from my best friend, eating lunch with my Dad, or getting to sing in the car...even if it's the saddest song I've ever heard.
When I go back and read all these entries I'm amazed how quickly I remember all the little highlights from random Tuesday coffee dates, seeing the person I love's face light up, or how my family went to my favorite restaurant for dinner. The little things. I promise after a week of writing these things down you can't help but notice them throughout your day. When you lay in bed at night you'll remember the sweet thing your friend did for you, the dessert after dinner, and every goodbye hug. So often the only memories we look back on are pictures. But what if you could reread how you felt when you and your now best friend hung out for the first time. Or when you finally got into your dream school! This practice has absolutely changed my life. I've seen God moving in ways I had never experienced & I'm learning to appreciate and adore every good thing that crossed my path.
And that is why I want to write a blog instead of sit in front of a camera. There is freedom in writing; there is interpretation and there is joy and there are memories. I want people to feel the different things that I've learned and relate to my story in whatever way they may. I want people to feel everything but remember to never neglect the good parts...because there are always good parts. There is always something to look forward to. And God is always good.
1 Thessalonians 5:16
Rejoice always, pray constantly, give thanks in everything; for this is God's will for you.